Teach Me How to Fly feat. Avanna

This won SounDevotion Competition Round 101!

Everyone likes the way you run the show
Like walking on air, flying wherever you go
Soaring so high through the clouds
Through the people, me on the ground
Floating so elegantly

It always seemed you liked everyone
Everyone liked you, all the nice things you had done
I don’t know why you couldn’t go on
I’ll never understand what got you down
You seemed so pleased with it

I hoped that someday you’ll teach me how to fly
You’ll take my hand and lift me to the sky from down here on the ground
What can bring you down?

What you do is more important than who remembers you

I always thought you were taking care of yourself, you seemed so strong compared to me

I always thought you were doing okay
And I’m sorry I took you for granted
I wish I could talk to you again

This was a hard lyric to write. The “you’ll teach me how to fly” melody and lyric were something I’ve had in mind since the 90s but never completed, because at the time I’d resolved not to write fantasy stuff and had no reality to base the metaphor on.

During that time, and for some time before and after, I had people in my life who I can only compare to what TV Tropes and others call the Manic Pixie Dream Girl, though these people have not always been female, or perky, and there have never been more than two of them in my life at a time. It started with two girls in high school who pretended to be interested in me but never wanted to date, i assume in hindsight that they were having fun teasing me or just didn’t want to see me down in the dumps every day. Each of these people silently exit my life for a number of reasons, usually because they are so busy with their own lives that I can’t keep track of them anymore, though it is partly my own fault for not trying harder to stay in touch. In most cases, I’m not the only one these people try to lift, and that’s okay. It’s what makes them so sociable and likeable.

The “you” character this is sung to is intentionally a mashing of three people in particular who encouraged me to make difficult decisions that turned be into the kind of person I am today. However, these were people from one of those nerdy, introverted cultures and they are really only extroverted around others who share their hobbies. In effect, I was an introvert led by the slightly less introverted as I choose to think of it today. Flying in this song is a metaphor for demonstrating good social graces.

All three of them are people who, after being out of touch for a couple years or longer, I ended up meeting another friend of theirs who told me they had died. I didn’t want to make a laundry list song, listing stories about dead people in the verses, and I didn’t want it to seem too personal, partly because someone who knew one of those three people might accidentally stumble upon the song, and partly to help the song be relatable.

Nowadays, I try to do a better job of keeping up with people from my past.


Organized by Sound



This is a collection of vocal and instrumental pop songs flowing between the styles, feelings, and moods of an introverted hobbyist with a small, growing family.

Featuring the following voicebanks of the UTAU speech synthesizer: Kasane Teto, Momone Momo, Pam, and Pamyu

also the Vocaloid voicebank Megpoid Gumi and the Alter/Ego voicebank Daisy Bell.

Mixed and mastered using Renoise version 3.0

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Tricolored, featuring the 3 Girls of UTAU


The three major voicebanks of the UTAU speech synthesizer, Utane Uta (the default voice,) Kasane Teto, and Momone Momo are finally featured together in a double-CD. I’m proud that one of my songs was chosen to be part of it.

It debuted on March 8 at Vocaloid Paradise Kansai 4 event in Kyoto, Japan and will be available for sale in at least three other events:

April 25 – Vocaloid Ultra-M@ster 31 (part of NicoNico Superconference)

June 14 – UTAU Paradise 2 (Nagoya Congress Center)

Autumn 2015 – Kimi to UTAU Hibi (TBD)

Featuring songs by cinema, DACCHI, daniwellP, inaphon, keisei, Maihime Rikka, mia子, nakano4, polyline, tamaGO, ある調味料, ナノリータP, ミントP, ムジナ, やし, ゆうしゃざこ, りこるP, 不燃物P, 五右衛門, 市蔵, 薄塩指数, 藤本萌々子, 風原, 黒音カツキ and more. Thanks to the illustrators and everyone who worked hard on the project.

My song is “Kyori no Yume.”

Learn more about it at http://homepage3.nifty.com/st-zako/utau3G_tricolored/ and http://vocadb.net/Al/12301.

It can be purchased for mail order via Melonbooks at https://www.melonbooks.co.jp/detail/detail.php?product_id=123619 – you will need a broker for addresses outside Japan.

A Visit to Earthsea (Medley)

This is an excerpt of music composed and played during a reading of A Wizard of Earthsea by Ursula Le Guin, as adapted and performed by the Golden Isles Arts and Humanities Association as part of the National Endowment for the Arts’ “Big Read.” NEA Big Read is a national program that offers grants to support organizations in developing community-wide programs which encourage reading and participation by diverse audiences.


Such programs are being attacked in US legislature. Please show your support and inform your representatives that the arts are important to a child’s growth and to an adult’s healthy lifestyle.

Duny / The Karg Invasion / Ogion / Serret / Spirits of the Dead / The Masters / Let Rocks Be Rocks / Benderesk / Lastland / The Open Sea / Healed